呢幾日真係諸事不順。
自己穩工,在幾百個人中個阿head都認得我,仲特登同我做左一個informal interview~,但後來attest左我係fail左,俾人reject左~
某人話,我看上去就係一個「大小姐」,即係「唔做得野」嘅「花瓶」。
我都無去反駁D咩,B coz我都好認同距嘅講法。Actually,我真係唔知自己可以做到D咩野~
前日去某港屋企,食野唔做野,做野打爛野。仲要燙傷左自己嘅手`
我睇到距家姐個表情,好詭異,exchanged a wink with her mother~於是我有一種好羞愧嘅感覺。
果個moment,我真係好想哭,但仍然要force a smile~
或者我更想嘅系getaway,但找不到任何excuse~
Apart from my family &my best frds, to be honesty, 無人應該be tolerant toward me~我也不會beg for mercy.
我想哭,我想走,大概是鐵錚錚嘅事實又再證實左-----我就係一個「大小姐」,即係「唔做得野」嘅「花瓶」呢個咁不堪嘅事實~
我知我現在最需要嘅係平衡一下,調整一下自己嘅心態.否則,我就真的,係一個「唔做得野」嘅「花瓶」了.
“Desperate Housewives”入面有咁樣一句:「When I was alive, I maintained many different identities --lover, wife, and ultimately, victim. Yes, labels are important to the living. They dictate how people see themselves.」
Labels are important to the living. 我諗我要明確一下自己嘅identities. 我唔係大小姐.
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